my birthday at 1am

Hey guys.

As I have so unabashedly named my blog, you probably already know it's my birthday today! Unless you've been living it up and the days blur into one and you lost track of time.
Otherwise YES it's all about me today! Just kidding haha, for those of you who love me, thank YOU mama ong! Wait that's weird to address her as mama ong, she's always just koh not ong so thanks mama koh! Wait now that sounds weird too.. ok never mind.


Firstly, I'd like think that I'm a very blessed girl. I really really do have the world's best parents who're just the right balance of control and hip haha ok that's just uncool ... 'hip'.
But yeah. Though they're very practical (i.e no birthday celebrations cause there's no point to them), so I don't have to celebrate with them which is a 'good' thing at this age I guess? since I have the bestest friends who refuse to tell me anything... I have no idea how eleventh-november will turn out when I wake up :p
Anyway, if you love me, you should be crying buckets for my mother today. Remember that ON THIS DAY IN HISTORY, my mother was in pain. Hello mini ziman 16 years ago!
ok whatever
LOL
not gay

But still.. Thanks mom! Instead of giving me a present, you should give HER a present.
Thanks for bringing a miracle to the world on 11/11/96!
*unashamed* aka bhb


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ok here i start rambling so scroll down until the later part---



It's not even 1AM, and it's already been the best day of the year today.
I think, from p6 until now, (because i only started celebrating my bday w friends on a larger scale since p6) today will be the most blissful one yet. Every year there were people I wished would wish me a happy birthday and sometimes, it just didn't happen. Of course, there were the reasons, but this year, I didn't even have to wish so hard.
In just a year, I think I've changed quite a bit.
Maybe not so much to you, but quite a lot to me.
I used to have those typical Facebook accounts with loads of friends - whoever who added I just accepted. It spiraled to mid 4 digits and I didn't even know more than 25% of them I would say.
But quantity will never beat quality.

I replied so many generic Facebook wishes on 11/11/11 last year. I couldn't keep up and my hand was really tired. Nonetheless, I still appreciated every wish though.


I deleted that account after a Philippine Facebook 'friend' suddenly found an imposter account of me. And ya it was those disgusting perv accounts. So I reported that account and my many Facebook friends helped me as well. It got deleted, but it was a wake up call for me and it scared me to think of perverts seeing my pictures.

Over time, I created a new account and only accepted people I knew personally.
Recently I even mass wiped out friends on Facebook I hardly knew.


It's not that I'm haughty or anything, it's just that after that imposter account, I felt scared. I always upload so many pictures to Facebook, it's so personal. WHo knows which perv would be watching? And yes, I used to get so many Facebook chats of guys talking to me, some were decent and some were not.
So I'm actually really very happy that I have a super tiny fb account with so little amounts of friends. But hey! I actually know every single one of them! And I never have to worry about them wanking off to my picture (yeah one dude told me that last year in the old account fml)



Now it's really everyone's personal choices and preferences as to whether they prefer a massive social circle with generic wishes or a smaller one with more thoughtful wishes.
But for me, I'm thankful to have been able to experience both and I know that both have their pros and cons, and I'll never be thinking of the grass on the other side or anything. Yes it's really very helpful to have a large Facebook friend pool, do you know? Once I made a friend with a student from SOTA. Who'd knew I had to go SOTA to watch a performance some months later and I got lost? It was at night and I was lost ALONE in a sleazy alley. Luckily, I called that friend and he directed me clearly to SOTA. I'm really thankful for his help at that point of time, it was REALLY scary. You really do meet nice people along the way as well.
So yes, there are definitely both pros and cons to both sides. If I were the sec 4 ziman I wouldn't have accepted his request and I would have probably been scared shitless at the dark alley then without help. Yeap.
wait or was it NAFA? Ok it's one or the other. The one relatively near bugis? wait was it bugis? pardon me, I turned a year older. Memory getting worser







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But let's not go offtrack. *stops rambling*

My point is, I've been so touched by the messages this year.
Thank you to those who have wished me thus far. For those who have been in my life for the past 4 years, thank you for watching me grow and change and, thank you for still being here as I turn 16. I could never express enough love for you guys.

To my new(er) friends, thank you for your thoughtfulness. I've been so honored to meet you guys. Thanks for your well wishes, I'm so happy today. :)


To my old friends,
thank you for the pleasant surprises and sudden jolts of flashbacks. May you all be doing as well as I can imagine. Thank you for remembering. :)




I love you all, and a few of you in particular. I guess you already know who you are. Thank you for the love guys! HAHA. Bye! I'm off to sleep :)



Happy birthday to me, I'm really feeling so damn loved tonight! I'm so happy. Hahaha. Really.
It's really such a simple but true feeling. Is this real happiness? HAHAHAHAH k no more gayness

Goodnight. :) :)