Recently I lost the drive to diet and all. Well, fine, not recently, but maybe for the past 8 months? I used to feel super uncomfortable if I didn't get a short run of at least 3.2km in everyday last year. But now I'm just a douchebag sitting at home. LOL. And I got much fatter.
Initially my friends were like, wow great you're starting to eat again! Now it's like expected and I eat all sorts of nonsense like KFC and all that.
You can say it's because of the bf. He thinks I'm awesome. LOL just kidding. But really! Everytime I complain I'm fat he tells me he doesn't think so and he says it with such intensity like he really means it. I think he's lying! Or maybe I'm just that good at concealing my fats in front of him. Hahahahah!!
And well over the time that we got together I feel much more comfortable about my fats cause it's like he really doesn't think I'm fat! He's crazy but I love it :P
Of course the bff zhiyi tells me I'm fucking fat everyday but who cares?!?!? LOL
Anyway I'm so glad to have the bf as my bf cause he makes me love myself LOL cheesy but true.

But having said that, loving thyself does not mean that you let yourself become fatter and fatter! LOL.

So while I have accepted my fats for 8 months, I have also decided now that it is not good at all. LOL.



So I'm back! But in a healthier manner. If you know what I used to do.

I'll be doing some simple workouts at home later, just kope from brother's workout routine. But I can't go run or swim yet cause I'm a sick girl. I used 2 boxes of tissues since yesterday evening. And I coughed and sneezed blood. LOL. But just a bit. Nothing near leukemia...yet. I think it's just the force of the sneeze rupturing some blood vessels.




Ok and I'm so sad at the realization that this year, all the exercises I pushed myself to do (excluding trainings) were all forced and none was out of passion. LOL.

This year's mindset was like "fuck this shit, bf loves me." LOL this is a downside of having the bestest bf who loves everything about you... hahah





Can't wait to get well from my gay sickness and start running!



And I'm so happy. LOL



oi i'm not gay


bye